The Strawberry Blond Statement
Everything you've ever wanted to know about the coolest Strawberry Blond in the world.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
I strongly dislike the phase of life I'm going through right now.
I am doing NOTHING everyday, as I wait for subbing jobs to become available.
I have a $65,000 college degree and no work. Student teaching stunted my income because I was unable to work another job during that time, so I have not received a pay check since October. My loans are acruing interest DAILY- (I already have to pay an ADDITIONAL $550 on one loan in a matter of two weeks.)
I have to take Master's classes to stay on my parents insurace, and only 1 out of 3 classes seem like they are going to be of any interest to me at all. Plus I have no way to pay for them.
I don't get out of bed in the morning, because there is no reason for me to get up while teachers are not absent.
I am a talented teacher. I should have a job. But I don't.
I could work on classwork during the days I'm not subbing, but I've already completed one project in the first week of classes, and I'm unmotivated to do any more.
I'm so depressed. I feel like I'm in a funk. I want to be teaching and all I do is sit around my parent's house checking available jobs, sleeping, and watching T.V.
Its like everyday is a sick day for me.
And I'm sick of it.
I want to this part to be over. I want to earn a paycheck, I want to teach, I want a LIFE!
posted by Brooke at 4:00 PM []
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
I had a long day.
Its been a month since I've posted, and Robert- I'm sorry. (I think you're the only one who reads this anymore, and Thank You!)
I'm feeling rather isolated. I'm so tired in the evenings from teaching during the day- that my fun self doesn't have any energy to do anything remarkable, or call up old friends that I am terribly missing these days.
Last night was officially my last required class meeting for my undergrad. I've got most of my paper work in for my teaching certificate, classes at UNO lined up and substitue teaching in Millard set up.
I also got a call from OPS about a job at south high school. I interview there on Friday. YIKES! I interview in Kansas City in one week. I don't know what my immediate future holds, but I'll be teaching for another two and a half weeks, and then I'll celebrate the holidays.
I have a trip to Detroit with Ryan planned for the weekend of January 12-15. We're staying with his lovely aunt, uncle, and twin cousins, going to the auto show, and relaxing. This trip is something I am completely looking forward to.
I'm also looking forward to being paid once again in my life. I got my student loan bill and almost killed myself then and there.
Time is flying. I have lots of work to do. I miss everyone; all my old friends, my old coworkers, even my college peers.
Ryan is keeping me company though- he is the most stable part of my life. I can always count on him, which is such a blessing.
I hope everyone who reads this is doing well. I hope we can enjoy our friendship sometime in the near future.
Happy holidays and all that jazz.
Love
Brooke
posted by Brooke at 5:44 PM []
Sunday, November 05, 2006
My posts are few and far between, but so many things keep coming up and happening.
1) I got bangs. First time since maybe gradeschool that I've had them. Initially I thought they were a disaster, now-I'm sort of getting used to them.
2) I only have 8 weeks of my young adult life left. I have already taken a dive into the interviewing process for a teaching job. It doesn't look like there are any jobs that i want available for January, but things can change.
There is a school district in Kansas City that seems to be rather interested in me. (Interested in anyone maybe) but sources tell us its a great place to work and they pay more for a starting teacher than any place in Omaha. However I am starting to feel scared and torn, becuase I am not ready to live 3 hours away from my beau. The Lincoln-Omaha distance already gets on my nerves, I can't imagine how things would be with 3 times the distance. Its like self-made heartache. I miss him already thinking about it.
I dislike uncertainty. I hate not knowing what my life will be like in 2 months. TWO MONTHS. Thats all I have left. I wish time would stop for me. And that Ryan could graduate from College, and be able to move to whatever city I move to. I wish I didn't have to make this change alone.
3) My baby brother turned 20 today. My family is growing older. No more teens in the house. No more kids. All adults.
I have to stop thinking about all this stuff so much. It makes me feel crazy.
posted by Brooke at 8:53 PM []
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
I just comment on Tina Fey's nbc.com live blog after watching the premiere of 30 Rock.
I said this may finally be the replacement to Arrested Develepment.
Its like Tina Fey and I are best friends now.
but yeah...30 Rock
posted by Brooke at 8:00 PM []
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Love is not special. You are not unique. Most people, ...thats most of ALL people, get to experience REAL love.
Its crazy how this works.
Love is magical, because for some reason everyone feels like they have something that nobody has when they are in love. Everyone wants to talk about, write about, show it off, but there is nothing new. Always the same "sweet nothings" and stolen kisses and stolen moments. Even the wacky, frustrating, and sad parts of being in love are documented repeatedly. Sitcoms, sonnets, novels, comic strips.
And through all of that, I still feel like my relationship is better than yours. That I have something special. That my boyfriend is the only man in the universe who is worthy of this abstraction.
Who is to say that I am not in the best relationship of all time?
Its the smallest bit unfortunate that I have nothing new to say, nothing unique to report.
Just that love is the most special, non-special thing of all.
posted by Brooke at 10:03 PM []
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Today was a lonely day.
My cooperating teacher never came into the classroom today while I was teaching. The whole day was just the students and I. Its not like I was scared or anything, or can't handle the responsibility, its just- going through 75% of the day with out a peer to talk to, trouble shoot, and joke around with, gets a tad on the lonesome side.
I missed a concert last night also. One that I had pumped myself up to see, one that my friends were at. It was pretty depressing to crawl into bed at 10:30 knowing that my friends and loved one were having a blast else where. I don't like having responsibility before everyone else.
Friday is going to be the CRAZIEST. 9:00 a.m. is my big Millard Public Schools interview, then I'm being observed by the assistant principal in the afternoon.
I had nightmares last night about both.
My computer's battery is about to die. Its been dying awful quick lately.
For Pete's Sake.
posted by Brooke at 10:47 PM []
Monday, September 11, 2006
I am about to apply for my dream job. My first interview for a real job EVER (consequently for said Dream Job) is a week from Friday. Can we say OH. MY. GOSH!? I know I can.
I'm totally freaking out. Because of this I will probably be less impressive than if I was acting normal.
Please pray for me. Thank You.
